The Gift of Strength

The gift of strength has been on my side this week and I am so grateful for that. A while ago Sio and I were talking about whether we should start a relationship or just be friends. We both took time to think seriously about what we should do. The last time I saw Sio was before I left for West Valley for Christmas, I was hoping to see him after I came back, I never did. He was acting a little strange to me, I gave him his space, on Wednesday I told him I was going to be down in St. George going to the Temple. I didn't get a reply or anything from him that whole day. I drove to St. George and went into the Temple with a prayer in mind and in my heart, I wanted to know what I was supposed to do with and about Sio. Thursday night I received the answer I needed to know. My answer was that Sio and I are to be and will be JUST friends. I took this answer well and I continued on with myself. The week went on and on Sunday Sio texted me and we had a really good long conversation and then he asked me what our relationship status was. My stomach dropped, I knew what I needed to say and I had a feeling I knew what he was going to say. I was honest and I told him that we are friends with feelings for each other, I asked him the same question, he told me that he thought deeply and very hard and felt that we are better off being just friends. This is where my gift of strength comes into play, Sunday evening I called my dad crying after texting Sio. I told him that I know that it is the right thing to do and it feels good that we are just friends, but I didn't feel at ease. I told my dad that I really liked the way that I felt around Sio and that was the hardest thing of letting our relationship be a "just friends" relationship. Of course my dad knew all the right things to say and gave me the strength to let it go and continue on. The past week with going to school, seeing boys, meeting new people, and just being social has been difficult. I have had a bad attitude towards my roommates and I have felt down. I realized that I have the strength of moving on, I want to curl up and cry because it is over, but I am smiling because it happened. Sio has given me the strength to realize that I want to change and be a better Emily, he made me laugh and smile, and he is truely a good friend. I know that he is happy and that in his future he will be happy and that gives me the strength for looking into the future and being happy. I am getting a little bit stronger everyday! Little by little, chug by chug, step by step. I know that one day a Prince will come and rescue me from this world of singles, when that day comes I will be strong enough to love and cherish him. I have the strength to wait and I am thanking my Heavenly Father everyday for his gift of strength.

New year, new me!

Yesterday I was determined I was going to do something with the mane on my head. I drove to Great Cips with ideas in mind, when I sat in the chair the girl asked me what I wanted to do. I shared my ideas and she helped me decide what to do. She told me if I were to cut 10 inches off and donate my hair I would get a free haircut. I couldn't pass up the offer so I cut 10 inches off. At first I was not too sure about what I had just done. I came back home, showered, styled my hair and I fell in love! I realized that someone needs my hair more than I do. Yesterday I realized the gift of service, I am so happy that I can help someone in their time of need.

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